Bridging classes. Came to school at 7.20 even though my first lesson starts officially at 10.30 lol. Supposed to meet meet some sec2s and collect forms, or do some art thing, make black plastic roses i think. Then, didnt. Went chem class instead and slacked. To orchard after school; suf, rin, weilie, marcus, ernest, mos, sendj. Ate at kfc and did hide and seek around taka. Just happened to fall in love with this pair of vans shoes, crail; white with black lining. Fucking nice for something simple. Then blah blah. Home and planning to plant myself in this seat for another hundred hours.
Cursed with a blessing. Gah, parents. I'm not even sure mine areclassifiedunder that term.
exhausted my will at 8:04 PM
Saturday, October 28, 2006
Lolol. Hair's cut. At first glance i looked like a rin. Then no, not. Wasnt feeling well yesterday, couldnt go skate if possible or anywhere else in fact.
Daaaamn, this is such a dickpost.
exhausted my will at 10:47 AM
Thursday, October 26, 2006
So, uhh uhhhhh, last day of school, for the not-sec3s. Two more weeks damnit zz. Maths and science somemore, total boredom. Spent half of the day playing cards in school. Other half forgotten. Who cares lol. Then, went to np room with mao clear stock and stuff. Daaamn lazy count but had to do it. So, done and done. Took bus back with ernest and dropped by marcus house to pass him the image to scan for my blogskin. Rin's having trouble cg-ing it and sorrray. I want my new skin argh, hopefully by this weekend. Rin can right? Oh god please say yes. z.
exhausted my will at 9:13 PM
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Pants.
exhausted my will at 9:38 PM
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Uhh, today was enjoyable? Cant believe it either lol, especially the fact that my day was spent with my family. Oh well. Left at about 11 this morning and headed to yishun. Mother said there was a small reunion. Ended up one whole group of i-dont-know people turned up wtflol.
Reached and gorged into the many dishes grandma prepared straight away. I swear, i'd give her cooking a 20 on scale. Then loads of things in the afternoon, card games and gambling, fooling around with cousins and, more. Brother was daamn obsessed with this puppy my aunt has lol, follow around like he's the dog lolol. Bubblegum wtf, stuffed like 6 pieces in my mouth to blow a huge tough one lolllll. Alright, made my point, today was fun for some reason. Then dinner, feasted on a whole new variety she spent the afternoon preparing \m/ aaaand, home sweet home.
Bloody full now. Burp. School tomorrow wtf.
exhausted my will at 10:37 PM
Monday, October 23, 2006
Come with me. Let me walk you through the world that i currently stay in. You can take a look around and tell me if i'm mistaken. You can even talk to everybody that i live with. Maybe you can tell me why everybody's so distant. Is it me or maybe, when i look around daily, i don't even know the people i can put my trust in lately. People that i used to hang with, now they're acting so different. I'm still the same person, why doesn't anybody listen. Can somebody please just explain to me. What happened to the way that we always said we'd be. Right now i dont know why i push through the pain that i got through. And i'm losing hope.
Deafening voices. That frequency inside my head, that says; you're going at it the hard way. I focus, get everything inside out of my brain, that claims; i'm going at it the hard way.
exhausted my will at 7:27 PM
Sunday, October 22, 2006
total. blankage.
exhausted my will at 11:19 PM
Friday, October 20, 2006
Nco-only training in the morning, pretty much average. Kfc. Daaaamn tired, last night slept early but not well though, heeavy thoughts. Wanted to go ecp or somewhere but came home and crashed straight away lol. Sorry guys had to ps. Woke up after dinner time and now im bored. Very boreded.
exhausted my will at 11:26 PM
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Whoawhoawhoa. Just came back not too long ago from bedok mac and i'm totally beat from all the thinking we did. Well, school as usual, so relaxed today, even abraham wasnt bitchy. 3c got into a little trouble though, saded. Went to bedok interchange mac with rin and suf. Met up with ernest, john, shamyn, dennis, jingying there, then got to work. Puuunani.
Changed my structure lol, from a bed/trampoline to a rope-swinging thing, its so fun damnit. Then then, yeah, do the pioneering shit till 5+ when suf, rin and shamyn decided to take off. At 7, lichin and shamyn came and came back to continue the work. And then, the rest left when me, john, ernest and lichin started to get bored. Cropped up a retarded living room, tortoises with feelers, autistic children, etc. Lol. Left at 1030. And yes, we finally finished discussing all the pioneering stuff.
Screwed. Np starts at 9 tomorrow. And im not done polishing boots and my proposal's half blank.
exhausted my will at 11:42 PM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
hey kid, you'll never live this down.
School. Had some talk for morning ir, reading programme in the library, another teenage talk for assembly, boring shit. Went around np room with ernest, mao, john, ros, lichin and yaoyong, briefed sec2s a little, then got to work on pioneering. And how cool is this, all our groups can combine structures and make a playground lolol. While rin's feeling dragonny (yeah, wtf), im.. being one with the force. Hell what that is. Feeling apologetic and such, sad for others and stuff.
exhausted my will at 8:45 PM
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Right so, school was a bore. Growing with confidence thing, basically another typical healthcare talk. Wanted to go skate straight after school, then got caught up in some np pioneering stuff. Zz.
Went kfc eat first before heading down to ecp with ronald, marcus and garner. Practiced powerslide, still slides, but no improvements lol. Lazy. I did, however, try mohawk (or moehog) and who knew, i did it. Its just turning from front to back while moving -.- easier said than done though. Well, back at 8. Walked in, dad didnt realize i came back after he did, dumb fag lol.
exhausted my will at 10:09 PM
Monday, October 16, 2006
Sailing or flying?
Had this innovation workshop. Hopes crushed, it was boring lol, wasted away 9 hours of my life. Some ideas at the red dot museum were good though, rather interesting, stuff we'd never think of. There's school tomorrow, long day.
a picture speaks a thousand words.
exhausted my will at 7:35 PM
Sunday, October 15, 2006
Alrighttt new skin, rin's hard work lol. Yes i know the <- gradient blocks are sticking to the first words. But nevermind, style. Out to century square then skate a little today with marcus, targeted to finally get powerslide right by today. And i nailed it right then and there lol, now just got to be smooth and slide further >.> Cant wait till the next skate session.
exhausted my will at 1:33 AM
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Name 25 people at the top of your head. [no order] 1.rin 2.marcus 3.suf 4.amos 5.waikit 6.ronald 7.joy 8.april 9.mao 10.jiahui 11.kewei 12.claire 13.bert 14.brandon 15.lichin 16.ryan chen 17.shahnaz 18.ros 19.ernest 20.dennis 21.shamyn 22.kajie 23.alvin sendj 24.hiong kwoon 25.fkfkwho, cant think! jordan
what is an inside joke with #7(joy) suibee.
what about #22?(kajie) nipple victim, watchout xD
would you go out with #12?(claire) LOL. ( ' ')( ..)
whats one word that describes #5(waikit) luo suo w00t naggy
would #4 look good with #25?(amos, jordan) not bad, both equally gay. no wait, amos's worse.
would u go out with #19?(ernest) helll noo. he'd bomb me with np stuff and i'd ps him on the way.
when is #11's birthday(kewei) no idea.
would you make out with #11?(kewei) lol. no.
are #3 and #18 BEST friends?(suf, ros) do they know each other?
have you ever liked #21(shamyn) HELL NO.
have you ever liked #13(bert) HE'S MINE, JAC. D=<>.>
what song does #14 relate to?(brandon) any effing loud techno song.
what movie could #24 be in?(hiong kwoon) some goth movie, shes emo man. scaary.
what famous person does/should #7 meet?(joy) christina aguilera. oh yeah, she wants it.
what do you think of #10?(jiahui) well from what i hear, ROAR. or purpur.
would you make out with #1?(rin) WTF. EW. NO.
what about #17(shahnaz) stick dropped in mud.
an inside joke with #11?(kewei) dont remember? lol.
have you ever liked #8?(april) noooo.
could you live without #20?(dennis) yeah. some things would be missing though, sad.
would #13 make a good couple with #16?(bert, ryan) lol. yes? though jac'll kill ryan, but thats beside the point.
what about #23 and #5?(send, waikit) send'll die of his nagging lol.
whats a random fact about#6(ronald) face ever-red as a strawberry.
ever had a crush on #5(waikit) wow. right.
or#25?(jordan) never. no childhooder. lolol.
has #4 ever liked you?(amos) i'd snash whatever's left of his balls if he turns gay on me.
what about #19(ernest) same.
one word for number #1(rin) retarded
do you know anyone that likes #24?(hiong kwoon) sec4 gerald, card magician and ex-np seniorr.
is #3 your friend?(suf) lol who wants him as a friend. hes a bro.
where do you see #21 in 20 years?(shamyn) lol, magazine editor manager or something.
what about #22(kajie) socccer-er.
would you ever make out with #2?(marcus) i'd get cholesterol lolol. jk, like you always do.
have you ever made out with#14(brandon) paintbrush wouldn't be happy. and no, of course not.
what# can you see yourself most with? bleh, about 15/25 from the list.
what # should #11 go out with?(kewei) i have absolutely no idea. The rules are simple: 1. Put your music player on shuffle. 2. Press forward for each question. 3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING! Some of the answers I got were strange. Others, downright funny! Let me know what happens with yours.
1. How are you feeling today? -before the dawn (wtf)
2. Will you get far in life? -for you
3. How do your friends see you? -fields of innocence
4.Will you get married? -7 minutes in heaven
5. What is your best friend's theme song? -side of a bullet
6. What is the story of your life? -youth of the nation
7. What was high school like? -top of the world
8. How can you get ahead in life? -i write sins not tragedies.
9. What is the best thing about your friends? -ocean avenue
10. What is today going to be like? -far away (ecp isnt far lol)
11. What is in store for the weekend? -everybody's fool
12. What song describes you? -so cold (very wrong >.>)
13.To describe your grandparents? -I caught fire (in your eyes)
14. How is your life going? -where is your boy tonight?
15. What song will they play at your funeral? -let you go
16. How does the world see you? -taking over me 17. Will you have a happy life? -carve your heart out
18. What do your friends really think of you? -meet you there
19. Do people secretly lust after you? -we are godzilla, you are japan
20. How can I make myself happy? -way away
exhausted my will at 10:54 AM
Friday, October 13, 2006
And all, i had, was a memory of what was. So let's, pretend, it never mattered to us. I hope this message finds you well. Never thought i'd live to tell, what's a dream and what is real, the way i really feel.
pens and needles;
exhausted my will at 9:05 PM
Thursday, October 12, 2006
I'm in love with electric guitar solos lol. Not to say i didnt like it before, the canon-in-d video marcus showed me just inspired me. So fucking awesome. Lol. Someone persuade me to get a guitar and learn please.
End of exams w00t. FREEEDOM. Did my art, just simply sweet. Colour scheme worked out nicely as i hoped. Now just hope my other papers would turn out okay as well, i studied damnit. Went ecp skate after that, suf, ronald, rin, marcus, weilie, amos, brandon and mao. Nothing much to say, always great times out with them lol. Jason and faiz came soon after with another two friends of theirs. And we went seperate ways soon after. We left at about 6. Then mao left, followed by rin. The rest of us went to parkway's kbox. Didnt want to sing, and i was almost getting late for dinner. Went in for ten minutes and left.
Came back from dinner with some relatives that i never knew? Left while my parents are still whining over there lol. Bloody dramatists.
exhausted my will at 11:15 PM
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
lol. lolol to what this and all of that was. lolol.
exhausted my will at 4:47 PM
Sunday, October 08, 2006
i could have been a loser kid, and ran away and hid.
god, three short posts just made up two days. cooool.
exhausted my will at 9:03 PM
Saturday, October 07, 2006
do you feel the messages? okay maybe im just turning mental.
exhausted my will at 9:45 PM
Thursday, October 05, 2006
chinese is damn omfg. passages were hard, had absolutely no idea how to do it, wrote crap. studying paid off though, knew like 4/5 of the tian xie han zi thing. ronald was practically hibernating during the paper lol, i watch him stay lying on the table like, half the time? fucking painful. skated out to study at east coast mac with marcus, ronald, suf and alifi. not too bad, managed to study quite a bit. then went back about, 6.30. ronald left his phone by the cats we saw lol. sad, he had to rush back and get it.
tomorrow's math, everyone's most feared paper. good luck to anyone and everyone alright.
small simple safe price. rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets. this is not a small cut that scabs and dries and flakes and heals. and i am not afraid to die. im not afraid to bleed and fuck and fight. i want the pain of payment. whats left but a section of pigmy sized cuts, much like the slew of a thousand unwanted fucks. would you be my little cut? would you be my thousand fucks? and make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid, to fill and spill over and under my thoughts. my sad sorry selfish cryout to the cutter. im cutting trying to picture your black broken heart. love is not like anything, especially a fucking knife!
exhausted my will at 8:21 PM
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
To the many times knives scrape through ice and eyes. For every twelve shards that fall off as a memory to be forgiven. The light has never wanted me. Frozen to be melted once again. Each drop made to cast yet another shadow on the world. She was stabbed time and time again. Shackled to the ground, draining each thought till the glass is empty. Point taken. Point perception.
exhausted my will at 8:44 PM
Monday, October 02, 2006
you know, you've got everybody fooled. without the mask, where will you hide. cant find yourself, lost in your lies. and somehow you got everybody fooled. everything works when you're silenced. somehow now, you're everybody's fool.
